So I decided on a water birth and I'm pretty sure its the right choice. I'm not taking any Lamaze classes but should be starting my breastfeeding classes relatively soon. I finally picked a name that I'm happy with; Josilyn Paige, and I think I'm going to call her Josie. Not Josey, but Josie like the girl from Never Been Kissed.
David still wants nothing to do with her. He says I ruined his chance of ever being happy. I obviously don't think that's true at all. I am in charge of no ones happiness but myself. I'm starting to get pretty tired again. I'm coming home and sleeping for about 3 hours on days I don't work. Omg, THREE people commented today about how my face is swollen. It makes me feel amazing! Lol. I'm waiting for my battery on my camera to finish charging and then I'll update some pics of my belly and if I'm feeling brave, my face!
I haven't seen much of my friends still. It seems like everyone has dispersed. Quite a few of my friends got into relationships so I don't really expect to ever see them. But I still admit its pretty hard. Quite a few of my friends call me and complain about their lives and then hang up as soon as they are done. Oh well I guess. Stephanie said I was just being a drama queen. I haven't been very aggressive during my pregnancy but I feel like that is beginning to change. I hate that.
School is almost out, I'm so ready. Graduation is June 6th. And then the following week on the 13th is the baby shower. I feel so unprepared haha. I know I'm unprepared. It blowwwssss. So my dad has been hiding out at my aunts house in Leitchfield Kentucky. I've seen him maybe two or three times throughout my whole pregnancy and I don't see that changing anytime soon. We have had a pretty rocky relationship due to the past and mistakes on his part. For the most part hes just very irresponsible and can't stand that the attention is on someone else other than him. A lot of my family on his side is like that though. They always ask for more and more. For Derby week my grandfather was going on his yearly fishing trip for four days and so my grandmother up and called me(who lives 30 minutes away when traffic isn't bad) and ask me to stay with her those four days and go to school and work and stay there every night. Its safe to say that didn't work out. Of course she lays the guilt trip on me.
I'm sorry I've got so much to complain about but I feel as if I get to tell it all to no one and even just writing/typing it out helps me a lot, whether someone reads it or not. blah, so how is everyone out there doing? I hope relatively well. Again, sorry for complaining so much just had to get it out.
*****UPDATE*****
Heres a few pics of the belly!
